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Beatrix Potter's Diary Beatrix Potter's diary is a true insight into her life. Written in code with the belief that it would never be read, the only surviving entries date from 1881 to 1897. At times she corresponds with a girl called Esther - an imaginary person in Beatrix's life which perhaps points towards the inevitable moments of loneliness she must have felt, particularly whilst Bertram, her brother, was away at school.

Her diary takes us into her world and she writes not only of her day to day life - family visits, trips to art galleries and exhibitions, but also the turbulent side of the wider world - riots, mobs, murders and political and social upheaval.

Saturday January 13th 1883 - Been to the Winter Exhibition of Old Masters at the Academy…I never thought there could be such pictures. It is almost too much to see them all at once – just fancy seeing five magnificent Van Dyck’s side by side, before me who never thought to see one…it is rather a painful pleasure, but I have seldom felt such a great one.

Saturday, July 12th 1884 - Pappa and mamma went to a Ball at the Millais’ a week or two since… Oscar Wilde was there. I thought he was a long, lanky melancholy man, but he is fat and merry. His only peculiarity was a black choker instead of a shirt-collar, and his hair in a mop. He was not wearing a lily in his button hole, but, to make up for it, his wife had her front covered with great water-lilies.

Friday, May 29th 1885 - I always thought I was born to be a discredit to my parents, but it was exhibited in a marked manner today. Since my hair is cut my hats won’t stick on, and today being gusty, it must needs blow into the large fountain at the exhibition, and drifted off to the consternation of  my father, and the immense amusement of the spectators.

Tuesday, July 28th 1896 - I feel much younger at thirty than I did at twenty, firmer and stronger both in mind and body.

Tuesday, November 17th 1896 - I remember I used to half believe and wholly play with fairies when I was a child. What heaven can be more real than to retain the spirit-world of childhood, tempered and balanced by knowledge and common-sense, to fear no longer the terror that flieth by night, yet to feel truly and understand a little, a very little, of the story of life.

It was not until 20 years after Beatrix's death that the diary code was cracked by the tireless work of Leslie Linder. On Easter Monday 1958, through recognition of a date mentioned and a little more research the first word was deciphered – 'execution'. This word marked the beginning of the enlightenment and Leslie eventually worked out the code, deciphering the symbols bit by bit.

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